I read a book this summer: Anything by Jennie Allen. I had never read her blog and didn’t know much about her, but a coworker recommended it to me. I read a lot, usually no less than four books at a time.
This book rocked me. Maybe it just took me off-guard; I wasn’t expecting radical life change from it. Maybe it caught me on an emotional week. Or maybe it was just a really good book that I needed at this point in my life. You see, I’ve been struggling lately with plans.
I’m not much of a planner in my day-to-day life. I’m not super organized and I don’t even use a calendar outside of work. I’m the sticky note gal, you know, the one that jots notes down and miraculously shows up to things on time. That said, I’m extremely goal-oriented…ok, and competitive. If I’m not accomplishing a task, crossing something off or achieving success at any given moment, I can feel that the end is near. This doesn’t necessarily make me overly productive, but it does rack up some impressive guilt and self-deprecation.
And lately, I’ve wondered what the goal is in this life of mine. Is there really a grand plan here or am I just treading water? Why am I in Denver, thousands of miles from my family? Should I be invested here or am I about to be “called” elsewhere? Am I volunteering enough? Am I making a great enough impact? In conversations with close friends, I’m constantly referencing my willingness to say, “God, send me.” But sometimes I think I’m masking selfishness and pride as willingness. I feel myself looking up at God saying: “Hey! You! This life you’ve given me? NOT BIG ENOUGH. Try again!” And that isn’t servitude. That is just me, me, me.
Jennie’s book challenged me to be willing, truly willing, to live out God’s plan for my life, however ordinary it may seem to me at first. Then I realized that I am surrounded by people who are doing exactly that: living in God’s will, diving into it, and being content with what He’s given them. The people I go to church with, my family, my friends, and my coworkers – there are so many people who seem to have this figured out.
So I’m going to talk to them. I’m a relational learner. My own story is only inspired when I hear someone else share theirs. I decided that there is no sense in me figuring this out on my own when I have so many wise people in my life. I also decided that I wanted to bring you all along for the ride. I’m going to interview people who seem to have this nailed down and I hope that their stories will stretch you like Jennie’s did me.
I hope you will follow along with me over the coming months as we discover what Anything means to each of us.
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